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May 03

The Matter of Factual Higher Powers

“All material things, the universe, the world, even our bodies, may be Eternal Thought expressed in time and space.” – 24 Hours a Day (May 1st)

IMG_1732many times have i heard people say that God resides up in the heaven’s…that the Creator is center of the universe…i must disagree with that ideal…i believe that His presence is everywhere…i have faith that He makes up everything…the Earth…it’s people…the animals…the weather…the stars…all of it…at the same time…i’ve never agreed with it being a mistake…all around us i see purpose and creativity…it has been with proof that i’ve come to some understanding of a Higher Power…and I’m still looking for it…and occasionally i find it…but, only when i pay close attention…it never seems easy to do…i’m still awakening to spiritual experience…

 

“In the final analysis, matter is thought.  When Eternal Thought expresses itself within the framework of space and time, it becomes matter.” – 24 Hours a Day (May 1st)

thinking has appeared to be an issue with me, from the beginning…my sobriety has been built on discarding my old thoughts, to bring in the new…from outside sources…people who have gone before me with tools that have carried them into new sober life…it’s what meditation is about, i have found…spending quiet time to erase all the thoughts crowding my head…bad thoughts of what i want…things i think need changed…mistakes i’ve made…fears i have…people i loath…concerns plaguing me…problems no solutions are yet found…these are all given special time of silence to be removed, in order to make way for the thinking from my Lord…and i’ve never heard the voice of God, in particularly…it always has seem to come from people like yourself…which is why meetings and fellowship are so important to me…i must make time for fitting these activities in my schedule…for they are an integral part of this new way of life…
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coming right down to it, i’ve always felt my thoughts were my own…rarely did i ever quickly accept they had come from somewhere else…when believing i had grown wise from my thinking, i congratulated myself…and this is where the root of my troubles stem from…the selfishness and self-centeredness…from learning and being taught i had been given advice from others…these people had journeyed previously, marking footsteps for me to follow…just like they had by their elders…it was passed on…so they just lead the way…it has been through my own personal experience that wisdom was paid for…errors made and corrections taken…after overcoming disaster i became witness to others facing similar problems…

IMG_1730this is why i do my best in being careful when sharing in meetings…i mean to carry a message…always referring back to our literature…much how i blog with quotations from books on sobriety…the readings blossom with fruition as i walk through the program…although i may have read these books over and over again…when i pick them up once more, it’s like going though them all over again…i start wondering if i’d ever even flipped through the pages of this chapter before…and i’m sure it’s because i’m seeing them though different eyes and mind…or maybe they are just spoken to me from that eternal thought…pain can be a great master…with healing we become stronger, in that sense…scarring can build a thicker layer of overgrown skin…of the same flesh gone through horrible times…alive to speak of the trials and tribulations gone to walk out the other side…it’s how we have bonded with one another in this program…we find similarities that safeguard us from making the same mistakes over again…

 

“Our thoughts, within the box of space and time, cannot know anything firsthand, except material things.  But we can deduce that outside the box of space and time is Eternal Thought, which we can call God.” – 24 Hours a Day (May 1st)IMG_1731

it doesn’t matter to me how we find God…just as long as it doesn’t remain a mystery anymore…i had the hardest time with the phrase God Consciousness…trying to figure out what it meant…i looked for my Higher Power in places i thought Him to be found…trying my best to pay attention to what was around me…my prayers most centered around others…doing my best to stay generic, as i knew it wasn’t my job to play God anymore…i haven’t the slightest clue what people really need…and for myself, i simply ask for removal of the things blocking me from the Spirit…my sponsor has told me that consciousness of God comes from being of service to others…when doing that, we see the miracles happen in other people’s lives…and is that our power coming to life?…no…i believe it is our Higher Power working through us…i never know what it is i say or do come to light in other people’s lives…and at times they come to me, thanking me for what i did…and it surprises me…i can’t believe that what i said or did really made that much of a difference…it is with that Eternal Thought that His light shines through in everything around us…for i see, and sometimes odd things happen for me…seemingly without reason to other people…but, for myself it becomes revelation…especially when looking backwards at how far i’ve come…